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The world is full of care, much like unto a bubble; woman and care, and care and women, and women and care and trouble.

Philanthropist remembered

Filed under: Uncategorized — January 13, 2007 @ 1:12 pm


(Published on AOL 01-13-2007) 
KANSAS CITY, Mo. (Jan. 13) - Larry Stewart, a millionaire who became known as Secret Santa for his habit of roaming the streets each December and anonymously handing money to people, died Friday. He was 58. Stewart died from complications from esophageal cancer, said Jackson County Sheriff Tom Phillips, a longtime friend.

Stewart, who spent 26 years giving a total $1.3 million, gained international attention in November when he revealed himself as Secret Santa. He was diagnosed in April with cancer, and said he wanted to use his celebrity to inspire other people to take random kindness seriously.

“That’s what we’re here for,” Stewart said in a November interview, “to help other people out.”

Stewart, from the Kansas City suburb of Lee’s Summit, made his millions in cable television and long-distance telephone service.

His private holiday giving started in December 1979 when he was at a drive-in restaurant nursing his wounds from having been fired. It was the second year in a row he had been fired the week before Christmas.”It was cold and this carhop didn’t have on a very big jacket, and I thought to myself, `I think I got it bad. She’s out there in this cold making nickels and dimes,”‘ he said. He gave her $20 and told her to keep the change.

After that, Stewart hit the streets each December, handing out money, often $100 bills, sometimes two and three at a time. He also gave money to community causes in Kansas City and his hometown of Bruce, Miss.

Stewart said he offered the simple gifts of cash every year because it was something people didn’t have to “beg for, get in line for, or apply for.”

Stewart gave out $100,000 between Chicago and Kansas City in December. Four Secret Santas whom Stewart “trained” gave out another $65,000.

One more neighbor

Filed under: Uncategorized — January 13, 2007 @ 12:47 am

As a counterpoint to the last posting I published, albeit not written by me but the sentiment shared… This is a small memory of the time I spent in Portland.

The houses along 47th street in the Southeast district of Portland are placed close together, but not any closer than one would expect in a residential district. Growing up in the country, it took me some time to get used to living in the city; primarily, understanding neighbor and resident etiquette.

 At the house, the floorplan must have been identical and flipflopped; in every room along the adjoining side our windows faced eachothers’. It took me a couple days to begin pondering my new environment. Looking out a window to watch the wind whip through the trees during the frequent Portland rain storms made us accidental spies; they saw me in my pajamas making lavender milk, I saw them pick the underwear out of their crack.

As per trend during the Lance Armstrong media blitz, avid bicyclists were seen wearing a T-shirt along with their bright yellow wrist bands that read, ‘One Less Car.’ This is not to say all bicyclists in Portland wore either or decided to get a bike to join in the bike culture there. Portland by bicycle is ergonomic, fun, and faster than a car. I used to fly by cars and buses, taking SE Clinton through Ladd’s Addition to get over the Hawthorne bridge to the bus mall.

One evening, Serena and I decided to share a dinner together and engaged in the prep work next to the sink- no different than many other nights, but this night was special. You see, I was wearing a very special outfit. Yes, one I picked out just for him, my bicycing neighbor.

It took longer than I expected for him to look out the window and into our kitchen. I had to make sure to stand at just the right angle for him to see what I wanted him to see.

With sharpie, on the back of my shirt, I had written, ‘One More Neighbor.’ He glanced at us, and while continuing through his routine, he stopped- turned around- and did a double take. His jaw dropped, and by the count of 5, he was doubled over with laughter, and pulled his wife into the kitchen to see my shirt.

That was a really good way to warm up to the neighbors.

There is no seperation of time or space

Filed under: Uncategorized — January 13, 2007 @ 12:04 am

On the Mindless Menace of Violence

Delivered by Robert F. Kennedy, City Club of Cleveland, Cleveland, Ohio

April 5, 1968

This is a time of shame and sorrow. It is not a day for politics. I have saved this

one opportunity, my only event of today, to speak briefly to you about the mindless

menace of violence in America which again stains our land and every one of our

lives.

It is not the concern of any one race. The victims of the violence are black and

white, rich and poor, young and old, famous and unknown. They are, most

important of all, human beings whom other human beings loved and needed. No

one - no matter where he lives or what he does - can be certain who will suffer from

some senseless act of bloodshed. And yet it goes on and on and on in this country

of ours.

Why? What has violence ever accomplished? What has it ever created? No martyr’s

cause has ever been stilled by an assassin’s bullet.

No wrongs have ever been righted by riots and civil disorders. A sniper is only a

coward, not a hero; and an uncontrolled, uncontrollable mob is only the voice of

madness, not the voice of reason.

Whenever any American’s life is taken by another American unnecessarily -

whether it is done in the name of the law or in the defiance of the law, by one man

or a gang, in cold blood or in passion, in an attack of violence or in response to

violence - whenever we tear at the fabric of the life which another man has

painfully and clumsily woven for himself and his children, the whole nation is

degraded.

“Among free men,” said Abraham Lincoln, “there can be no successful appeal from

the ballot to the bullet; and those who take such appeal are sure to lost their cause

and pay the costs.”

Yet we seemingly tolerate a rising level of violence that ignores our common

humanity and our claims to civilization alike. We calmly accept newspaper reports

of civilian slaughter in far-off lands. We glorify killing on movie and television

screens and call it entertainment. We make it easy for men of all shades of sanity

to acquire whatever weapons and ammunition they desire.

Too often we honor swagger and bluster and wielders of force; too often we excuse

those who are willing to build their own lives on the shattered dreams of others.

Some Americans who preach non-violence abroad fail to practice it here at home.

Some who accuse others of inciting riots have by their own conduct invited them.

Some look for scapegoats, others look for conspiracies, but this much is clear:

violence breeds violence, repression brings retaliation, and only a cleansing of our

whole society can remove this sickness from our soul.

For there is another kind of violence, slower but just as deadly destructive as the

shot or the bomb in the night. This is the violence of institutions; indifference and

inaction and slow decay. This is the violence that afflicts the poor, that poisons

relations between men because their skin has different colors. This is the slow

destruction of a child by hunger, and schools without books and homes without

heat in the winter.

This is the breaking of a man’s spirit by denying him the chance to stand as a father

and as a man among other men. And this too afflicts us all.

I have not come here to propose a set of specific remedies nor is there a single set.

For a broad and adequate outline we know what must be done. When you teach a

man to hate and fear his brother, when you teach that he is a lesser man because of

his color or his beliefs or the policies he pursues, when you teach that those who

differ from you threaten your freedom or your job or your family, then you also

learn to confront others not as fellow citizens but as enemies, to be met not with

cooperation but with conquest; to be subjugated and mastered.

We learn, at the last, to look at our brothers as aliens, men with whom we share a

city, but not a community; men bound to us in common dwelling, but not in

common effort. We learn to share only a common fear, only a common desire to

retreat from each other, only a common impulse to meet disagreement with force.

For all this, there are no final answers.

Yet we know what we must do. It is to achieve true justice among our fellow

citizens. The question is not what programs we should seek to enact. The question

is whether we can find in our own midst and in our own hearts that leadership of

humane purpose that will recognize the terrible truths of our existence.

We must admit the vanity of our false distinctions among men and learn to find our

own advancement in the search for the advancement of others. We must admit in

ourselves that our own children’s future cannot be built on the misfortunes of

others. We must recognize that this short life can neither be ennobled or enriched

by hatred or revenge.

Our lives on this planet are too short and the work to be done too great to let this

spirit flourish any longer in our land. Of course we cannot vanquish it with a

program, nor with a resolution.

But we can perhaps remember, if only for a time, that those who live with us are

our brothers, that they share with us the same short moment of life; that they seek,

as do we, nothing but the chance to live out their lives in purpose and in happiness,

winning what satisfaction and fulfillment they can.

Surely, this bond of common faith, this bond of common goal, can begin to teach us

something. Surely, we can learn, at least, to look at those around us as fellow men,

and surely we can begin to work a little harder to bind up the wounds among us

and to become in our own hearts brothers and countrymen once again.

Retirement Planning

Filed under: Uncategorized — November 4, 2006 @ 7:19 am

Yes

What do YOU do?

Filed under: Uncategorized — October 31, 2006 @ 5:25 am

Along the catwalk to shoot the tanks, I saw the sun rise. Out of curiousity, I shot the temperature of the sun with the infrared gun. It showed 2840 degrees farenheit, the same temperature as C tank.

 From the top story of the batch house you can see clear to old town Sacramento’s sky scrapers. The foreground of Tracy’s alfalfa and hayfields are edged upon by new development, just as East Oakland was said to have looked in the 70’s. It’s times like these, looking out for miles and miles, I know it will be a good day. What are you doing today? Is it what you would really want to be doing? If it’s not, what’s in your way? (more…)

Different states of conciousness

Filed under: Uncategorized — October 31, 2006 @ 4:49 am

Waking up early has not felt so good for a long time. I wake up when it’s dark, work, go to bed after work when it is dark. Saturdays I rest more. There is still anxiety occasionally at work, but it’s not something that controls me any more. However, since spring, the only dreams I can remember are nightmares.

Imagine having only dreaming nightmares for the last 6 months.

 The events in the dreams are new, nothing from my past except for familiar people and places. Terrible things happen to these people, and I am a witness to them, or they do terrible things to me.

Liberty

Filed under: Uncategorized — October 30, 2006 @ 8:00 pm

‘All men think all men mortal, but themselves.’‘We take no note of Time but from it’s loss.’‘Be wise to-day; ‘tis madness to defer.’

-Edward Young

‘Don’t go on looking at me like that, because you’ll wear your eyes out.’

-Emile Zola

Most of us met at Liberty High School before we moved up to the North Coast. I don’t know if it was ever intentional, this migration of sorts; the area seemed attractive and the schools were affordable.

Jake took me to the library at Liberty to show me the book about Booneville and the Boontling language. We both read volumes of books, so this at the time did not seem too unusual to me. At the time, it seemed like an extension of his interest in psychology. That’s when I learned of Boontling.

This was before Josh would talk my ear off about Bethany’s beauty, when he was shy about normal situations like love, but not nudity. Let me explain. Josh became a good friend of mine through Jake before the Mono record, before his briefs would become a regular visitor and familiar sight on the Arcata party circuit, before we would lend money back and forth while in college. Josh is the type of friend you can depend on when the chips are down. Josh was the type of person you could also expect to do crazy things at parties. I have seen his underwear more times than I could count, but I’ve never kissed him.

It was around the time Crossroads was airing in Liberty on Friday mornings that Garrett began hosting shows at the Butterfly café. It was like the Placebo, in décor. His parents let us use their remodeled garage for shows, due to lack of public venue for the younger bands in our part of the East Bay Area. I remember it being drug free, like the placebo.

Landon would win the Oliver K. Bascom award for his short story that year. I won it the next.

Garrett and his friends voted themselves into the Young Republicans club positions of President, VP, etc. etc. to the chagrin of my brother and his friends. Garrett Kelly became the Homecoming King when Jake and a handful of people tricked the homecoming committee; they voted again and again in favor of Garrett. Josh went to the dance with a blow up doll, refusing to dance with anyone else.

Jenny Bradley and I had met in a class taught by my favorite teacher, Rusty Erlich. He had earned his teaching credentials at HSU, then dilly dallied a little longer in the North Coast milking cows to maintain a pleasant lifestyle. We shared the same interest in road cycling years before Armstrong became nationally renown. We also, later, shared finding our jobs in the East Bay when I returned. My favorite bicycle ride was along Jane‘s Creek Road to the Arcata bottoms towards Mad river and the ocean beach. There is a side road bicycle accessible only to Mckinleyville and Trinidad that is gorgeous.

Garrett’s parents and my parents were familiar with each other through my mom‘s practice and my father‘s work with the city. My mother started her veterinarian practice when I was twelve, returning to college in her 30‘s when my dad‘s health began to go downhill. If she hadn’t had her practice when my dad passed away, I don’t know where my family may have been.

Of the many jobs I had while in college, I was a caregiver. My mother was a caregiver before she went back to college. A Freudian slip, at times I would say ’caretaker’ instead of ’caregiver.’ There is a reason. Before she went back to school, my mom was a caregiver. A couple times, when her clients weren’t responding to her calls and their door was locked, she would have to break into their home to see if they were ok. Usually, if they didn’t respond, they had passed away.

Although I was familiar with the majority of people from the Brentwood area, it was not until we moved to the North Coast that we became friends. However, I had seen Garrett lick honey off of a punk rocker, Josh and Landon drunker than skunks, Jake sharing his beautiful writing, and Jenny showing signs of exploding into a social butterfly before then. Landon had, as I recall, a most exceptional GPA.

As much as I have seen these people change, I still see them as I had in high school. By the time a person is 18, their personality is pretty much what it always will be. Generally, I feel everyone is on the up and up, but I found I didn’t set the bar too high for myself when I lived in the North Coast. I’ve changed that since I’ve moved back. I’m no better than I used to be, my priorities have just changed.

It is difficult to talk of everyone without talking of myself a bit too, to find a point of reference with which to map outward. While we were a good group of friends, I think we were all caught up in our own personal drama too. I admit, I was hard to be a friend to, and tended to isolate myself at times.

In many ways, our stories are intertwined, and as much as we have diverged and carried on with our own lives, we still seem to carry a bit of each other with us; if not in memory, then in spirit. I think of our group with love. Without play, without being engaged, there is no learning. So, let’s have some fun!